Blunt confessions of a former pothead
Through My Eyes
By Jason Sapp
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Staff Writer
The following account is an
embarrassing and personal story,
but I feel it needs to be told to
make a statement about an epidemic
that our society will deal
with as long as there is life on this
planet. This column is meant to reach
out to those of you who have
someone important in your life
getting into trouble. But more importantly,
it is aimed to those of
you who are experimenting and
are about to get in over your
head.
I started smoking marijuana
when I was 18. It seemed fun for
a while, but soon I began looking
for another rush. Well, if excitement
was what I wanted, I was
about to get it.
I started using other drugs,
including pills and cocaine. One
night I was at a party. At three
o'clock in the morning I had just
finished a hard night of partying
mixing many various drugs together.
I was about to go to sleep
when all of a sudden I was having
trouble breathing. All of my
fellow partiers were passed out.
I called my father and told
him I was in trouble. He rushed
over and helped me into the car.
He drove me to the hospital. Everything
was coming in and out
of focus. I began clawing at my
throat. I couldn't breathe.
We arrived at the hospital
and I couldn't walk, so some
nurses carried me to a bed. There
was lots of yelling and screaming.
I could hear, but my audio was
coming and going. My heart was
racing. The last thing I remember
was them sticking me with
lots of needles. Then I passed out.
When I came to, my father
was standing over me with a
mixed look of fear and disgust. At
that moment I knew I was done.
I wasn't gambling with my life a
second time.
I made the decision quickly,
but it was not easily achieved. I
realized that I had hit rock bottom.
I had no job and no money. I
had dropped out of school. I had
no real relations with my family.
I was broke and had almost died.
That day, I decided to become
sober. It wasn't easy, and I did
slip several times. I had to drop
people that were bad influences,
and that was tough for me to do,
but I did it. I did make it and have
been sober for almost six years
now.
The other day I saw someone
from my past. He was living out
of his car. He had been in and out
of jail. He looked horrible. This
was the inspiration for this article.
I thought maybe it would
help keep some kids from living
my past experiences or his current
fate.
I can not speak for most
people. I used drugs because I
wanted some excitement from
what at the time I felt was a boring
life.
At first it was exciting to do
something that was looked on as
taboo by society. I felt like I was
going against the Man.
You see, this is how drugs
clasp their horrible jaws around
you. First, you do drugs now and
then for fun and excitement.
Then you are doing it a little
more often. Before you know it
you are doing it every day of the
week. Now it is not for fun anymore
but you can't stop. It swallows
up everything in your life
until there is nothing left.
I know people who say �I don't
use drugs, I just smoke marijuana.�
They say it is recreation
and that it doesn't kill anyone.
They say that the Indians
smoked peyote, and it didn't hurt
them. I know these arguments by
heart because I used to live by
them.
The truth is that marijuana
is the gateway drug. It seems
harmless and therefore seduces
you into using it. And if you call
becoming an unmotivated slouch
who spends every dollar to buy
more marijuana like I did harmless,
then I guess it is. The fact of
the matter is that eventually
most people move on to something
that can harm them. The
choices are endless so the best
way to avoid them all is to never
start, or if you only smoke marijuana
now, stop while you still
can.
The reason that we are losing
the war on drugs as a society is
we don't like to talk about it. It is
human nature to shy away from
something that makes us uncomfortable.
But we have to fight
these feelings and triumph over
them.
So what is the answer to all
of this? We as human beings are
the answer. Teachers, parents,
friends, family, coaches and community
leaders are the answer.
We need to reach out to children
at a younger age. We need to put
the DARE program back into
schools in our county and
throughout the United States.
We need to help our children find
adventure in other activities.
We need to step up and be
brave and tell our friends and
family that they have a problem.
People have to admit they have
a problem before they can get
help. But you can help them do
that. Bug the hell out of them.
Piss them off. Gang up on them.
Do whatever it takes.
As long as we see drugs as a
taboo subject that needs to be
hidden under a rock, we will continue
to lose loved ones and
friends to this horrible epidemic.
We have to bring this subject way
out in the open and attack it head
on.
When I was younger, I used
to laugh when I read info on how
bad drugs were. You might be
tempted to do the same with this
article. But hopefully, you will be
more aware than I was. And if I
just reach one person, then I have
succeeded.
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